Accepting that i am a cunt

I am crass, childish and sometimes offend people especially when they dont understand what I'm actually trying to say.

I am not a toy nor am I stupid and I know realise I feel angry for falling for your 'sincerity'. I feel like a fool who got played and I hate being treated like a stupid person.

I hate that you made me feel like your words could be trusted and I hate that you made me feel like I was a bad person. I hate how you are 2 sided and I hate how you act like you're helping me but honestly you were always just helping yourself. I hate how you always act meek but in fact you're twisting the grapevine underneath the surface.
I hate that people are like this especially when i assumed that people here would be nice.

The fact is that no where is nice and I should just focus on myself, my art and my family.

You don't care about me. You don't care about the friendship. You only care about yourself and how people perceive you.

I dont understand how people can just let go and forget. When we do that, we allow ppl like you to go away free without repurcussions but now I understand that holding people accountable for their actions is doing them a favour and helping them to grow.

So im going to true to myself now. I give a fuck about what others think of me but i will never let it get in the way of my art. For a brief moment, i felt like a bad friend but i would like to stop trying and just be myself.

I am mean, rash and rude.. That's okay with me.