Depression is a bitch

So it's been a while since I posted here 

Ive been going through a lot and it hasn't been fun.. 

Someone once told me that healing isn't linear and I've been trying to remind myself of that

but it hasn't been easy. Every now and then, I catch myself trying to escape from the real world. 

I hate that I am like this but at the same time, I'm glad I'm aware of it now. 

When I feel myself fading, I gently pull myself back to reality.